{"id":2125,"date":"2019-10-21T09:00:54","date_gmt":"2019-10-21T13:00:54","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.shanafigueroa.com\/blog\/?p=2125"},"modified":"2019-11-11T23:08:05","modified_gmt":"2019-11-12T04:08:05","slug":"whered-you-go-shana","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.shanafigueroa.com\/blog\/whered-you-go-shana\/","title":{"rendered":"Where\u2019d You Go, Shana?"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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For all of you in a funk, watch this show.<\/figcaption><\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n\n

Hi there, awesome people! Sorry I\u2019ve been silent for a while, for everyone who cares (all half dozen of you\u2014the best of you! And Mom\u2026hi, Mom). I moved from Boston to Colorado Springs in July for a new job, and the move did not go smoothly. Then the new job I started did not go smooth either, and then I thought again about retiring early but decided (again) that wasn\u2019t a feasible option, and spent a few weeks in mental turmoil over the situation. Then<\/em> at work we started getting inundated with suicide awareness stuff due to an increase in military suicides, even though it\u2019s well known none of this \u201cawareness\u201d actually does anything to lower the rate, and my cortisol levels ratcheted up even further. What hilarious irony. <\/p>\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n

Basically, I went through a bout of depression. As a result,\nI had to tap out of social media for a bit. Posting stuff online when you\u2019re\ndepressed is always a bad idea; I\u2019ve learned this the hard way. I\u2019ve never been\nsuper into social media\u2014partly because of my age, but mostly because I\u2019m a\nprivate person who thinks a lot of things I don\u2019t feel comfortable sharing\u2014but\ngenerally, when I post a lot, it means I\u2019m happy. When I stop posting, it means\nI\u2019m sad (or unavailable for some reason).<\/p>\n\n\n\n

So I was sad. But now I\u2019m feeling better! What snapped me\nout of my funk? Weirdly enough, it was the TV show Good Omens.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

If you\u2019re not aware, Good Omens is an Amazon Prime-produced\nTV show about an angel and a demon based out of England who work together to\ntry to prevent the apocalypse. The story is adapted by a book of the same name\nby Terry Pratchet and Neil Gaiman, and if you\u2019re familiar with their work then\nyou know what to expect. It\u2019s goofy as hell in the vein of Monty Python, with\nextremely British humor and a loopy narrative that\u2019s constantly going off on\nrandom tangents. However, at its heart is a touching tribute to the power of\nfriendship. The actors who play the angel (Aziraphale) and the demon (Crowley)\u2014Michael\nSheen and David Tennant, respectively\u2014have ridiculous chemistry. Seriously,\nthey might have one of the best bromances put to film. When Crowley\noff-handedly yet sincerely suggests he and Az fly to Alpha Centauri together to\navoid the apocalypse, I dare you to watch Az\u2019s face light up with a tiny,\nloving smile and not squeal over how heart-warming it is. I DARE YOU!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Anyway, I found myself really identifying with Crowley\nespecially\u2014and not because I feel like a demon or that I work for a demonic\norganization or anything like that. It\u2019s more like [author\u2019s note\u2014originally I\nwrote some fairly vague stuff here about my day job, but later cut it out cuz I\ndon\u2019t need that drama in the very off chance my boss wanders across this blog\nor whatever]. Crowley\u2019s friendship with Az gets him through the millennia, as\nwell as his rebellious spirit, damn the consequences.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It\u2019s the second part that appealed to me (well the first\npart is nice too, but you can\u2019t control that). I\u2019m a square peg in a round hole\ntoo, and I should just embrace it and stop trying to fit into the damn hole. It\nworked out for Crowley! Yes, I know it\u2019s just a TV show, but it\u2019s still\ninspiring.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And that\u2019s why I\u2019m posting now. It\u2019s time to get on with\nthings, be the square peg, and bang out the next couple years in Colorado\nSprings. I\u2019ve also got a hillbilly hot tub and some beer to help things along. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

***<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2026Okay, interesting fact\u2014I originally wrote this post over\ntwo months ago (in August), then didn\u2019t post it for whatever reason. In fact\nI\u2019ve written a bunch of stuff since then that I haven\u2019t posted because I\nhaven\u2019t felt like it. I\u2019ve packed up the hot tub for the season. Social media\ncontinues to be overwhelming and scary. I guess I wasn\u2019t quite out of my funk.\nI don\u2019t think I\u2019ll be out of my funk for approximately two more years. Damn. Eh,\nmaybe medication will help. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Now I\u2019m wondering if I should cut out that last line, or not\npost this blog entry at all.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

See the vicious cycle of silence here? <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fine, I\u2019ll just fucking post it before I talk myself out of\nit.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Hi there, awesome people! Sorry I\u2019ve been silent for a while, for everyone who cares (all half dozen of you\u2014the best of you! And Mom\u2026hi, Mom). I moved from Boston to Colorado Springs in July for a new job, and the move did not go smoothly. Then the new job I started did not go … <\/p>\n

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